~~>Mystical in every way (dats me!!!!!!!!) charm and light up any room i come into. I don’t like following the crowd. Being an individualist is what im all about. Also being a big dreamer with lots of hopes make me even more delightful.Sometimes im very hard to catch just like a faery where i stay very busy but i do know how to relax and have good time =)

~~>I like being myself and not going with the crowd. i like expressing myself with poetry stories art anything that has a deep meaning to it. Although i tend to be sad and emtional im more content in some ways than the Angel of Loneliness and i  have a bigger purpose for myself in life. Even though people do look at me differently i don’t let it bother me, i chose to be the way i am.i hope to find another person who has similar interests as mine and can appreciate the concept of ‘me’ time.

~~> i really luv music and dig anime i know im unique in every aspect and truly know how to be myself.i don’t conform much with society only very little. im a hopeless romantic waiting on the perfect love and very picky when it comes to liking a guy.  Although i may get a little lonely at time i always let the hard times make me stronger and keep on being who we are not changing for anyone. Even though i may not have a ton of friends the few i have are very special and i will be true to them no matter what and go back to what a real friendship is just like what i do with love…………………..

     ~~~~~~~~~JOAN~~~~~~~~~

I looked at him for the first time, and not noticing I would fall in love with him I looked away.
I now sit at home only thinking about him.
Why is it that I can’t let him go?
I know realize he is never coming back, and begin to cry.
He was my first, my first at so many things.
But the one thing I will always remember, is
that he was my first "True Love."
I did things not thinking of the outcome, and now I am left home all alone.
I just can’t let him go.
Why is it that he can act like nothing is wrong, and say "I Love You?"
Does it even mean anything?
If he read this, would he show this to all of his friends?
I just don’t know anymore!
All I know is that I love a guy.
And for that reason……
"I Can’t Let Him Go"

Although you are with someone else,
I want to have my say
Without invading your domain
Or scaring you away.

I respect the choice you made
And all that you decide,
But I would just like you to know
I want you by my side.

As a lake deep in a wood
Awaits a cool, fresh breeze,
I will wait, a patient eye,
While you do as you please.

                                                                              < Joan >

" Time does not bring relief "

Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year’s leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year’s bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide.
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go - so with his memory they brim.
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, ‘There is no memory of him here!’
And so stand stricken, so remembering him.

That Someone
I thought you were that someone who was the one for me,
I thought you were that someone and forever we would be.

I thought you were that someone who’d make my dreams come true,
But you were just that someone who made all of my day’s blue.

I just kne you were that someone so i swore my love to you,
But that was my mistake and i think you know it too.

I thought you were that someone but you were oh, so fake,
You slaughtered me with lies and caused my heart to break.

I know you are that someone who’s not in love with me,
Still i hoped you were that someone who someday would be.

Why play games with someone’s, heart it is such a shame,
Now im single and lonely and i’ve got that someone to blame.

So i guess that was a fantasy and now it’s over and gone,
No more thinking of you now who I thought was that someone. 

As the years go by

We discover whether

We are outward or

More private,

Adventuresome or decile

Ambitious or complacent,

It is no sin to be one

Or the others;

But it is extremely

Important

That we discover

Who we are——–

Not who we think

We should have to be………………………

                                                         ……..joan ……